but its still funny!
Tobey_Twink in Spoken For | Bringing into question social barriers, this beloved sequel, set in the state of Arizona, draws the viewer into the journey of lovers, ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) tobey_twink (Jim Caviezel) and wes (Winona Ryder), who discover themselves becoming closer when a terrible plan has been set in motion by her accident-prone cousin, recontal (Ewan McGregor). This film is loved by dozens worldwide. | | |
| Date: | 2004-01-19 14:52 |
| Subject: | Well, well, well. |
| Security: | Public |
| Mood: |  contemplative | | Music: | Something 80s? |
Ok so not alot has happened lately, been going over to my friend Tony's and just hanging out and getting drunk. Wes and I are extremely happy, I have been engorging myself on videogames, The Ocarina of Time to be precise, and might I add, it is damn fun reliving the Old, Link. Anyway Dad is here so I am gonna head out but let me leave you with some words of wisdom...
Time is a concept human beings will grasp, even as old life stops new life begins and continues the constant flow of "realities", however when one is to assume his reality must continue one must remember where it began and why.
| Date: | 2003-11-19 12:29 |
| Subject: | WTF! |
| Security: | Public |
Umm, why is it every five minutes I win something or get something cool? I mean popups and I HATE THEM! Anyone know a good popup blocker that is free cause right now I can barely type before I have at least two that spawn two more that spawn four. I HATE THEM!
Oh I beat Defiance. Good game, except when the fuck did the damn thing turn into blood omen; legacy of Raziel? I HATE THAT PUSSY LITTLE HYLDEN! Oh yeah, ooops. He is a bad guy. or at least a vampire turned hylden or something. I swear NOTHING follows continuity to a letter ever! I hate that. I sit through anything that has a sequel and it can quite easily be ruined by seeing something that wasn't potrayed the same way as the first one. Like the Mummy, his are tattoo in the first movie was a picture of my boyfriends tattoo, the eye of Ra, however in the second one, its some stupid triangular symbol, like they blatantly said ok, you see this design, fuck it, people who watch this are stupid and won't notice. I mean come on. Oh I found one other movie with Alfred from the batman series. Sleepy Hollow, I never realized it but the will guy, who hung himself, he was Alfred. Thats definately a first for me. Anyway I have to go and sodomize my face with a small piece of chicken.
and got AIM, my screenname is: darthparker19
Message me if ya want to chat. Anyway I am getting back into playing the legacy of kain; Defiance. I love this sadistic game. Ryan if you read this soon, try and come up here and see me or something, like you and brad, we can sit here hang out. Maybe even get stoned. I may have some money. Anyway bloodsucking is calling.
| Date: | 2003-11-14 11:50 |
| Subject: | So? |
| Security: | Public |
I don't care. I don't exist. I am poop. I smell like poop. I feel like poop. I will be stepped on like poop. I have no feelings other than being poop. I can only wonder; who shit me?
:-)
| Date: | 2003-11-12 01:32 |
| Subject: | NEEDED! |
| Security: | Public |
I have some video games that require more than one player and both of them are RPG style, one being LOTR;ROTK and the other is Gladius, both feature multiplayer support and both are very fun, you must have a ride and at least four doughnuts anything else would be uncivilized. Anyway, I am bored and alone, only inpart to my sleeping boyfriend(an audible snore) and my videogames. HA!
| Date: | 2003-11-11 01:38 |
| Subject: | What to do. |
| Security: | Public |
I just....I want friends, I want people. I have Wes, and I love him so, but...I wouldn't mind people for us to go and see that are close and enjoy our company, I have friends of course but so few are my friend. I wonder if Ryan knows yet that it is Brad that lets the dogs out, well he told me anyway. Its stupid but then again, brad is childish. I am reaching that point of want for more weed and well, I am bored so see ya
| Date: | 2003-11-11 01:02 |
| Subject: | Dude. |
| Security: | Public |
Whats wrong with the world? I mean seriously, I do absolutely nothing wrong and people hate me, I don't get it. Seriously, people can be fucking stupid, and I do not emit myself from this list neither, I am stupid only sometimes, and besides people who hate me for NO explainable reason. I mean really, if you can't say straight to someones' face why you hate them then don't fucking say anything that may inherently make you dumber!!!!!
I love my boyfriend more than I could have ever imagined. I am so happy. Its' good to know, that even for someone as much a loser as myself, that there is still peace.
I feel dead, like the only thing that is keeping me here is the love I have. I mean I'm happy, very. I love Wes. He loves me.
But I'm sad....or....depressed....just can't shake this feeling like, "hey I suck".
No one supports me, I mean really supports me. I'm missing something....I think anyway, I just can't shake this feeling.
I don't have a job.
I buy weed and smoke it.
I play videogames.
I am fucking useless.
:step for a second inside my head:
A creaking door opens, revealing a small sliver of light, not enough to allow sight but enough to know there is a door, a figure, a small boy takes the space between door and wall. He looks up, an almost broken look upon his face, he smiles as one would smile with their leg just cut off, full of pain, but still a smile. The boy sortof looks you up and down and then hands you a bloodstained sheet of paper which reads; Every creature in the universe, will die alone.
the boy watches as you read intently but begins to shift and fidget. He holds his arms out to reveal cuts the entire length of his arm from his elbow in six bloody lines. He smiles again, and then almost barely whispers; "I have too, I do many bad things...but noone seems to see them, but the people who look don't see their own bad things, I am trying to take away some of the pain the others feel, but I don't know if its' helping....their all dead.
I'm still kickin, check Nega_Kaiser!
Well lets see, I havent kept a job yet and still my rent and everything has been paid, hmm, how am I doing it you may ask yourself but I shall not answer! I hope everyone is ok, my new phone number is 939-1023 I hope all my LJ friends call me. I know there is prolly alot I could explain but until I have the internet and alot of time screw that! I may even be moving next door if things arent going better, than certains aspects. Anyway I'm kool, I'll be 19 in a couple of days and the party I plan on having will be tremendous! IF YOU ARE ANYWHERE NEAR NAVARRE FLORIDA april 3rd THEN PLEASE CONTAST ME! I WILL BE HAVING A HUGE PARTY!!!!!! ANYONE INVITED! BYOE
Bring you own EVERYTHING!
there will be however; *****, ****,******,******,*******,******, and ducks. anyway I hope you guys have great lives and come to my party!
I have been living in Navarre for the past couple of weeks and or months and so far things are going great. I wish things were better but my new Siding Job takes all of my time. I am even getting paid 10 dollars an hour tax free. I mean my life is picking up, I have been rollin and getting fucking stoned alont and everything is kool on that level. I haven't been dating anyone lately just been sitting wondering what is going on in other places, I know Jon prolly wouldnt understand, but I couldn t live with my father anymore. I want him to know I miss him. Caroline too. Anyway I don't have a phone yet and everything is now setup for the beautiful night tonight will be at Brad's Sisters' place. hence how I am updating. Anyway I hope everyone knows that in the LJ world friends whop drop friends from inavtivity is stupid and they should.....hung upside down and fed exlax! I'll try and updat more often but I hope I get cable setup or something.
I think that thing quite possibly couldnt be simpler, I mean if things don't make it, then so be it, its nowhere near the end for me and so what if I'm alone on V-day, I'LL DIE ALONE AS WELL. I'm not worried, really I can't be, if I don't have the money then I don't have to worry right? I mean, like say for an apartment? ONLY SPECULATING! Anyway I miss Erin alot, I also miss Jonathan, and I miss Caroline, I know there are probably several people whom I should probably add, but I c an only help and feel looke down upon. I pray that things work out better than I can hope. Thats really the only thing I can ask for within the realms of possibility, I hope anyway....I think....Anyway.....
I have a duck. His name is Ducky. and if ducky gets in trouble then I may call him the fucky ducky.
| Date: | 2003-02-12 12:26 |
| Subject: | Resistence. |
| Security: | Public |
| Mood: |  cold | | Music: | Rent - Halloween |
I'm pushing against limits I never knew existed and I'm basically fighting everyone and everything. I think that something I'm not ready for is coming fast in my general direction. I can only assume that once this tornadoe of life and emotions fades away I hope I shall not stand on that field just as alone. I'm doing what I'm doing because if I don't I'm nothing. I can't stay that way. This life may not be the best or it may not get handed to me, and because of that I know what I have to do. I think I truly understand what painful and joyful can truly mean. I have spent time with people I care for in a place just as remote as navarre. I want things to stay that way. I just want to be forgotten by those who never knew me, the ones who hurt me. I want nothing to do with them. I was betrayed, by something I followed, without a second thought. I would like this journal entry to mean more especially to the people I care about. But becuase of circumstances forced upon me by someone who wouldnt leave me alone to die, I must seem vague about what may or is going on. I know many of you wouldnt understand under said circumstances but know that these are what I was dealt and I can't back down. I can't back down, because I have to put myself in the worst before I can even comprehend bad. Sometimes I wish I had known to work myself and push myself, so that way I could somewhat be used to it right now, and since I'm not, I guess that means that this will be another of my many failures.
I sometimes find myself wishing that I didnt hate my life as much as I do, but then something even worst happens, and any hope of justifying the pian and suffering flies right out the window. I want everyone to know that thought I may sound ok or fine, I think for this, once and only once, will I have truly gotten in over my head.
This is my Poem for Frank, I made it recently and I feel it very appropriate, I only place it because I saw him today and I thoughthe would like it but I never really had the guts to bring it to his attention. Anyway here it is
Frank
You had on this hat, a hat I must say I had only seen in movies. Then a friend told me you might like me. But I acted on impulse, and now whats left of friendship save battered and burning sex stories that boast neither you nor I. For you see I'm the Bane. It was never your fault. Your style makes everyone double-take but you rise above attention and care less about your look, save what you want. I used you but like I said, you were never at fault, more like something I should have learned from more, than I took without true gain. The apologies could be endless, but we're smarter. I consider myself overlooked in some ways but you my friend, have more beautiful qualities that noone see's once again I should take a closer look, once again I should take notes. But I doubt the world could handle my attitude with your self-righteousness.
I never knew the meaning of "distance makes us wise" until I was throw farther from anyone than ever before. If Aaron wasnt so bent on trying to seduce me I may have called him over, but I can see now that I will probably be alone on Valentines day, sinmce of course the girl who wants me to be romantically involved with her, will be out of town with her FIANCE. YAY FOR ME and being straight, sometimes I just wish there wasnt so much picking over others and more of people who know what or who they are and don't worry about such trivialities. Anyway I feel like a big dufus without someone making fun of him. I need to go.
| Date: | 2003-02-04 20:12 |
| Subject: | what the fuck |
| Security: | Public |
| Music: | Leaving Through The Window - The Astronaut |
I have feelings for certain people and it seems that just liking someone brings forth a torrent of people who want us to be ripped apart simply because they want one of us or they are jealous. I just want to fall in and slit my wrist as I fall. I hate this spiral of pain and destruction but it seems unendless. I wish and want and can not have. I strive and suffer and neither rewarded nor forgiven. I hate this and therefore I am hated. To crawl up and die would be to good a thing for me now, hence why its draped upon my face and dangled. I am glad I have great music now, and I am also glad I know who I am, because the fact that this will undoutbly happen again. I know I betray myself.
Its times like these that make my life not worth living and yet I still look upon my life with utter distrust from a surrounding world that cares not for me, nor for itself. I want nothing more than a loving a cherishable girlfriend and NO DRAMA!
you're "a perfect sonnet". you are still
searching for someone that's perfect for you,
and until you find that person you wish
horrible, horrible things would happen to
everyone that's in love.
which bright eyes' song are you?
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I have been doing nothing at home except watching the same movie (spider-man) over and over and still never anything New, I have been making soundfiles of the movie my favorite lines and I place them onto a cd and listen to them obsessivly, its time I admit I have a problem, and I DLed some of Erins' band music, Harlen. I DLed nothing and I am here, both wonderful songs, its just weird that I know her and I like see her online at her webpage and they are kinda famous, oh well sometimes things are forgotten that shouldnt be, I just wonder when its gonna be me this time. I NEED MORE SPIDER_MAN COMICS!
I was trying to open something someone gave me tonight and in doing so I guess this person some how affected what would happen and I stabbed almost through that spot between your forefinger and your thumb. It was a collectors edition hulk figurine. I thought about alot of things tonight and I think...I just....I am going to mainly date girls from now on. I am basically through with myself. I am who I am and I'm gonna be something even if its just the guy who flips burgers for the rest of his life, at least I can make some money and get the things I want. I know that someday the one I want will come to me, but for now I'm coming for them. I know that sounds Jason-esque but hey if they puss me off bad enough I will kil...I mean I'll kilbasa for them...yeah kilbasa. Anyway I just wanna say that, I wanna be happy. I can do that for myself. I know sometimes I do things that hurt people or myself and I honestly do them without thought, so from now on I'm going to think. I was reading my friend (laughingirl) and I was wondering if her erin was that awesome punk chick I was like talking to at her wedding. Anyway I have been thinking alot about my friends too, and I think its about time I do something for them too, like not fail and get sad about it but succeed and make them happy about it. I hope everyone has a wonderful day. Yeah and for those few who have noticed my change thank you for being there at the other three I think or maybe two, or even one. Anyway thanx again and I hope everyone has fun.
This statement below is for the person I am going to love so if you don't think you need to read this then don't but understand it's something I have to say;
I know that I will never love anyone else, and I know that if I do they probably will never be anything in comparison to you my first. I want you to know that I will always take care of you and if you ever cry may they be tears of joy brought forth from the torrent of happiness I can bring. I hope that you never worry nor frette, and that you allow me my sole desire of protecting and taking care of you. I want you to know these things as I will always be the most honest lover I can be, and I ask only the same respect. I will drop things for you and I will act beyond stupid in my pursuit. I just want you to hope as much as I do that I never come across someone who will not treat me as well as you ever will. I know you may not understand alot of the things I may feel understand that love pushes past all of them.
If I had one then yes. It would be true, but alas...I fail.
-Perfect- You're the perfect girlfriend. Which
means you're rare or that you cheated :P You're
the kind of chick that can hang out with your
boyfriend's friends and be silly. You don't
care about presents or about going to fancy
placed. Hell, just hang out. You're just happy
being around your boyfriend.
What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?
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